Acceptance
I am a techie plus entrepreneur of so called art company as I have never given it a formal launch and it’s a like a seed which only I can see because it hasn’t popped out yet. As I am the one who rooted it I know it and lot of times that motivation fades because I too cannot see it sprouting. I have written four lines about my venture and on the contrary a single word describing my highly paid job this is the reality of my life. This is how I prioritise these two aspects in my life very well seen in the starting paragraph of this article.
If we look at the wider aspect this is a career part of my life. There are other parts too and fitness catches a lot of attention and interlinked with fitness is relationship — first with my life partner and second with rest of the world. We do things to impress that doesn’t bring any results also. We all do have that image of a guy or a girl with whom we all want to be. Though we cannot imagine their professions and exact body shapes but one thing is common which we all want from or better halves and that is love, we all want it pure and infinite. Rest of the things follow along. In my case it took time for Mr Right to come into my life but let me tell you that it was with Mr Right only that things worked and it worked starting from the smallest thing to any complicated stuff you can imagine about. This is what we may call as timing, timing of life.
To be frank, it is not as straight it looks. There has been heartbreaks, mental shut downs, physical shut downs, emotional, financial and social losses on both the sides. I know my side, but how am I so confident about Mr. Right’s side. I am confident on the basis of present. When I first had a conversation with Mr. Right I could totally make out that we are same or better I say similar. What is my life’s foundation, his base is exactly the same. What we care about is common, what we don’t care is common. If I have 360 degrees interest, so does he. If I am sick he is also does not in a very good condition. You must be thinking whether this is a good thing or a bad thing, well it is a perspective thing. Good one is that being like this we understand each other to a great extent.
Let’s come to the third thing that is Fitness. How do you define it? Is it the weight or the good look feel. I have always been ashamed of my body. As much as I remember I always felt scared when it comes to measuring scales. I was scared because I knew it is going to come more. When I was in 4th or 5th or maybe 6th standard my weight was almost equal to the most healthy girl in my class. I used to look lean as compared to her but my weight was equal to her. It did not seem fair to me. I accepted it somehow or may be I haven’t accepted it yet because today also I am scared of weighing machine. It gives me a real stress. I was never friendly with weighing machine, till now I am not except when I was able to reduce my weight in the line of fifties in 2016. 2017–2018 I reached near 60. 2019–2020 I reached above 60. In 2021–2011 I crossed more than half sixties. Nothing seemed fair to me. I make plans in my mind and then I disobey them to seek the comfort of the moment. While writing this I have taken a Cult transform plan which I was thinking for so long and even paid for also but due to some payment failure I just could not and now I know why my 100 plans aren’t working because this thing of having a mentor is there in my mind. All the self-help books which I have read I know it is important to have a mentor someone you can talk to, someone you can be grateful about and much more.
“when u try a lot and still not achieve it means u are not trying a lot…….”
As I said let’s try this having a mentor thing. I will be writing separately if I achieve what I am thinking in my mind. So I give this fitness thread to my coach “Kalyani Deshpande” and I will concentrate on being and entrepreneur and give ideas and work wise I choose Ishan Malviya as my office coach. Time to login to justify highly paid job…
will write again soon…
Heena Srivastva
